Well yesterday Jay wasn't feeling well and by the evening was going out of commission. Samantha started a fever and by midnight was up screaming. She then proceed to think it was morning time and like she wanted to play. I decided to embrace the moment and enjoy her. She can move stars with her eyes and smile. Needless to say I was woken up by her screaming and saying ouch, thinking Jay may have swine flu, and realizing I was in over my head. By 7 am I was feeding one baby, calling doctors offices to get appointments, calling my mom to come in, father in law saying Jay wasnt coming into work and I'd be late, washed bottles and got Isaac stuff ready and Micah wanting me to just hang with him. Once my mom got here I was able to go into full gear. By 11:30 I had done a full days work and thought how the heck do single moms do this.
There are moments I feel guilty for not holding Isaac as much as I should and rushing through life. Moments I feel guilty like I am shafting Micah & Samantha for time they need by working, but in the end I can only do my best. I survived the day and was even able to hang out with some friends for dinner, but would have never been able to get it done without my mom. And I should mentioned this is the second time in the last month that Jay has gotten more than one day of rest when not feeling well. :)